desirée amber. twenty-one. hilton head island, south carolina. worship arts major, theatre minor. montreat college, blue ridge mountains, north carolina. i like music. i like fashion. i like nature. i like jesus. i like life. i don't brush my hair or watch tv. i sing songs all the time.

1 corinthians 10:13
psalms 13:6

"when i'm lost and it seems the end, like there's only certain death, you tell me to live. when dark clouds cover the sky, when there's no hope, you are the light. you tell me to live. when i'm all by myself and i'm scared about my health, you tell me to live. you fix these broken wings, yeah. you heal my everything. you tell me to live."

it’s like a myspace survey… but on tumblr.

1. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?
i broke up with someone. and then i fell in love. i drank legally. i drove seven hours and back by myself. i went to tennessee. i learned some music theory. there’s probably a lot more. so read on…


2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
yeah, i don’t remember what my resolution was. i will probably make a couple for this year and i hope i go through with them. i want to get my tattoo this year.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no, but heather is pregnant with a girl (finally) so that’s exciting.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
no, not close. but people i knew or relatives of friends. it’s sad to think about.

5. What countries did you visit?
amuurica.

6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
a content heart.

7. What dates from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
january 1st, 2nd, and 3rd… passion 2011. january 7th, i made a change for the better. february 14th, steve was the best valentine ever and max took me on our first date to tybee island. march/spring break, mission trip to inner city atlanta with jimbo and csf kids. april 9th, i asked max if i was his girlfriend and he said i was. every day after that until october 24th because he made them worthwhile. october 24th, my heart broke. november 17th, my last day at scad and i didn’t even know it. december 12th, my 21st birthday. i spent it in bed. december 16th, day when we actually went out and celebrated my birthday. a wonderful night. : )

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
i think waking up every morning is a pretty big deal. and i got on dean’s list at scad. and i made a pretty difficult and life-changing decision to change schools and alter my career path. and i learned a lot of lessons about love and giving.

9. What was your biggest failure?
wasting time. wasting energy. not glorifying Him with everything i had.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
i’m klutzy and i have a horrible immune system.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
gifts for other people. i like picking up little things for friends. i also bought really pretty stuff for my room/dorm/future apartment and tickets to passion, and tickets to see the rocket summer in concert, and a really cute charlie brown christmas tree with a single red ornament for four dollars at walgreens.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
anyone who made someone’s day.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
myself. my ex-boyfriends. … is it bad to say the entire human population?

14. Where did most of your money go?
food. gas. clothes. food. gas. gifts. food.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
visiting schools. auditioning for shows at scad. church. passion 2011. passion 2012. my 21st birthday party. seeing the rocket summer in orlando. pretty much anything having to do with max. playing a nun in a hilarious musical over summer.

16. What song will always remind you of 2011?
there are a lot, but probably black sheep by metric because lord knows carolyn, azaria, and basically the rest of our friends listened to it over and over and over…

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? 
surprisingly, i was more sad last year. i was in a relationship during this time last year that i was miserable in because he was miserable with life. we broke up shortly after the new year, and then dated other people. though i’m single now, i’m happier because… i see a lot of lights at the end of this tunnel. bright lights.
b) thinner or fatter?
i think thinner, but only by like. two pounds.
c) richer or poorer?
poorer because i didn’t work this winter break, waddduuup.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
thinking. praying. studying music. studying the word. giving and loving. exploring. 

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
thinking. dwelling. worrying. 

20. How did you spend Christmas?
with my parents at home and at church, and my older brother visited from charleston.

21. Did you fall in love in 2011?
for the first, and what i thought was going to be last, time.

22. What was your favorite TV program?
boy meets world will always rule all.

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
i don’t hate anyone.

24. What was the best book you read?
captivating. again. the poetry book i had to get for my poetry writing class.

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
well, marek just introduced me to into it. over it. and i’m loving it. also, ascend the hill makes me feel god’s presence like whoa.

26. What did you want and get?
love. flowers. dates. growth. laughter. adventure.

27. What did you want and not get?
love that lasted. and a haircut that i really, really liked.

28. What was your favorite film of this year?
i really liked 50/50 and that’s all i can remember seeing in theaters.

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i turned 21 on december 12th. i stayed in bed all day and fell asleep at nine pm. i went out and celebrated with my friends at bars in savannah that friday, which was much less depressing.

30. What is one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
more of You, less of me.

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
i want to wear mukluks, leggings, and a sweater that swallows me every day for the rest of my life.


32. What kept you sane?
jesus. my parents. my friends. my then boyfriend. my pets. scripture. music. the outdoors. naps.

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
joseph gordon-levitt, probably. he’s a beaut.

34. What political issue stirred you the most?
i really don’t like politics. because my mom is politic-insane. 

35. Who did you miss?
shaun, my grandparents, austen, all my friends from school over summer and winter breaks, heather and joey, katie, melanie.

36. Who was the best new person you met?
i met a lot of nice people at school like brooke, susanna, and max and all his friends from florida, and got closer to a lot of people that i met in 2010.

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011.
only He can satisfy.  

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
“search my heart, and search my soul. there’s nothing else that i want more.”

Dec 31st at 2AM / tagged: survey. / reblog